Salam Ramadhan!
Masih cuba utk menyesuaikan diri dgn berpuasa tatkala bekerja waktu petang. after 5 years working in the morning session, fighting fatigue and sleepiness in the afternoon while working is quite a challenge. teruk betul...org kerja office tu lg dr pagi smpi ke petang kan bekerja. tp dema kerja dlm air-cond..ehehehe..mencari alasan aku ni sebenarnya.
Kesian tgk anak murid year 1 and 2 yg kepenatan. sekilas pandang je dah tau, sapa puasa sapa tak. dah tu, kalau pukul 4 boleh terkejar sana terkejar sini....kwn2 dah tak larat dah nak bercakap...90% aku tau jwonnya ialah tak puasa atau puasa separuh hari. takpe la..budak2 kan. Tak sampai hati nak marah2 (walaupun terlepas jugak kalau dah kena yg tak makan saman tu)... buat reading pun alahai..lemah je suaranya. ramai jugak yang tertidur masa buat latihan. usually aku bg dia je dia tidur dlm 5-10 minit then kejutkan dia suruh basuh muka. hehehehe..kalau la aku boleh buat mcm tu.
ada jugak yang puasa selang sehari atau selang dua hari. gasak la budak..janji kau berlatih puasa. tu tak kira yang kejap2 pegi toilet, kejap2 pegi toilet..balik jr dr toilet, basah kuyup kepala. rupanya menyejukkan badan dengan air..hahaha...makruh la nak ooiii. (aku pun dulu sama gak..tp tak buat la kat sekolah..buat kat rumah)
macam2 ragam budak kecik baru belajar puasa. kelakar jugak tgk..banyaknya kesian. tapi kagum la dgn semangat nak berpuasa tu...tahniahla utk mak ayah yg latih anak mereka berpuasa.
Dah tu, yang dewasa ni kenapa la ada yg tak nak puasa???????
Thursday, July 26, 2012
Friday, July 6, 2012
what if...
"Only you know when you are ready to have a child" - Private Practice season 4.
Yeah, I know TVland don't always provide truth. but sometimes it rings a bell.
Really? You really can know if you are ready to have kids? biological or adoptive...only you can have the answer. Really? please enlighten me.
I think I am ready. But if I am why my body isn't? What if I am not actually ready...that's why I am not granted with any kid of my own. I do believe mind and body don't connect...no matter how positive you might prep you mind to face a bad situation. so my mind says i am ready..but my body says it needs more time.
I don't know. I was in a middle of a heated argument with my loved one recently...it made me think. Is it because we haven't changed like most married couple do that we come as 'not ready' yet. i have my bad traits..he has his own. It's so hard to change things that is so deeply embedded in your personality (strong-headedness, loud) that you feel if you change it you're not you anymore. We still enjoy late nights out and staying in till noon in bed ..we still have brunch instead of b'fast...we still do what we enjoy do during our bachelor years..does it make us 'not ready' in other people eyes? do all the things we do in lives show that we don't want or aren't suitable for kids?
*sigh* I always hear new parents say that once you have kids you will make a 180 degree turn in lifestyles. so do i need to have kids to turn a new leaf? I mean having kids can actually make you a better person, yes? In that case I might need a kid to change me to better person. I am quite pessimistic with this whole biological kids due to some unfortunate setback...but I am totally partial of having adoption kids. Adopting a kid in order to strike some luck to be pregnant or to change you to a better person sounds so selfish. not to mention unfair to the kid..imagine people using you as a ticket to get pregnant. I don't know.. I feel so torn and I am confuse.
Maybe I am being so hard on myself. Maybe i am very analytical on making desicions. I really want to make this relationship works...the thought of us heading for saperate ways scares me. I truly cant visualise having to love somebody that isn't your truly own. but what if it is the answer to save ourselves? I need help!
Yeah, I know TVland don't always provide truth. but sometimes it rings a bell.
Really? You really can know if you are ready to have kids? biological or adoptive...only you can have the answer. Really? please enlighten me.
I think I am ready. But if I am why my body isn't? What if I am not actually ready...that's why I am not granted with any kid of my own. I do believe mind and body don't connect...no matter how positive you might prep you mind to face a bad situation. so my mind says i am ready..but my body says it needs more time.
I don't know. I was in a middle of a heated argument with my loved one recently...it made me think. Is it because we haven't changed like most married couple do that we come as 'not ready' yet. i have my bad traits..he has his own. It's so hard to change things that is so deeply embedded in your personality (strong-headedness, loud) that you feel if you change it you're not you anymore. We still enjoy late nights out and staying in till noon in bed ..we still have brunch instead of b'fast...we still do what we enjoy do during our bachelor years..does it make us 'not ready' in other people eyes? do all the things we do in lives show that we don't want or aren't suitable for kids?
*sigh* I always hear new parents say that once you have kids you will make a 180 degree turn in lifestyles. so do i need to have kids to turn a new leaf? I mean having kids can actually make you a better person, yes? In that case I might need a kid to change me to better person. I am quite pessimistic with this whole biological kids due to some unfortunate setback...but I am totally partial of having adoption kids. Adopting a kid in order to strike some luck to be pregnant or to change you to a better person sounds so selfish. not to mention unfair to the kid..imagine people using you as a ticket to get pregnant. I don't know.. I feel so torn and I am confuse.
Maybe I am being so hard on myself. Maybe i am very analytical on making desicions. I really want to make this relationship works...the thought of us heading for saperate ways scares me. I truly cant visualise having to love somebody that isn't your truly own. but what if it is the answer to save ourselves? I need help!
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