aku?? cikgu???

masa kecik2 dulu, aku tak nak jadi cikgu. sebab keja cikgu ni banyak. i still remember my mom brought back tons of papers to be marked, then during weekend making scrapbook which i had fun colouring it. but i enjoyed going to the school...i loved all the attention the big sisters gave me. maklumlah, anak cikgu. konon2 cute la..hehehehe. the best moment was my mom was appointed as cikgu perpustakaan. i spent the whole morning till afternoon reading to all the books i could laid my hands on. guess the ulat buku gene is inherited la.

and now, i'm a cikgu. ala, cikgu cabuk aje. kwn lain keja hebat2...engineer, pensyarah, akauntan, businessman, mcm2 man la...tapi i dont have any regret. because i FELL IN LOVE with teaching..the passion, the drive..never felt that way. i love the fact that i dont have to stay on a same chair in a same room every second of the day. what i didnt expact was the energy consumed, the lethargy after a day's work, the endless whining from the younger children..... in fact the first 3 months i became a teacher, i actually left the class unattended because i dont know what else to do amidst the yelling, screaming and the bickering. hehehehe... lemah tul mental masa tu...and that how i learnt that students arent as ideal as i read in the psychology books.

ya, aku cikgu yg garang. i dont tolerate (how do you say it...) undiciplined students. i'll push my students to their fullest potential. at the same time i make friends with them..maklum la remaja. hati n perasaan kena jaga jugak, jiwa tgh kacau kan. tapi klu buat hal mmg kena la dgn aku. apa aku buat dgn diaorg? hehehehe...biarlah rahsia. penat jugak nak layan, tapi 'pelan2 kayuh' la. nak wat camno? tu belum kira duit yang keluar utk diaorg....fotostat, makan (ye, zaman skang pun ada jgk murid yg takde duit belanja ke sekolah), duit minyak keta ulang alik latihan n kelas tambahan...mana bleh claim dgn govt. rasanya aku layak utk claim some of the students jadi anak angkat dgn JKM la....

come teacher's day...mixed feeling. no, i dont want presents...my students are not from wealthy family. (tapi every year bwk balik 3 paper bag-ful of gifts...heheheh). i want them to behave, i want them to jadi org, i want them to know that in this cruel world, masih ada yg sayang. aku garang sbb aku nak diaorg jadi org. AKU MAHU MURID AKU TAHU APA YANG MEREKA MAHU...and go for it.

eh, emosi plak post yg ini. takpe la, i'm allowed to...kan teacher's day tak lama lagi. :)